other thoughts….

Another post so soon – I’m really getting ahead of myself…… or ….. maybe I just finally have more thoughts on my mind.

I’ve applied for several jobs over the last few weeks. I could apply to more, but to be honest, I dread the thought of the professional world – I just don’t want to do it. I don’t want to be a professional.  Yesterday kind of sealed the deal on that one. I went to a fashion show (I was very kindly invited to it), and while the experience was great, and I loved the show, I came away realizing I just don’t want to live that life.

I hate the thought of climbing the ladder, building a resume, sounding impressive….. and the list goes on…….  I just don’t want to live in that world. I like real life. I like being a person who connects to people because they are another human being. The work world just seems so made up – every one looks nice, everyone speaks well, everyone acts professional, and their worlds revolve around things that are generally a human invention.

And as I was driven home I started to think about where I lived. It isn’t the best of areas or apartment complexes (which is mainly due to our ignorance of the area and lack of knowledge in picking a first apartment.) and I’m pretty sure the lady who drove me home was a little nervous to be where we were. I think about that, and how ideally we would have wanted a better and more reputable area to live in. And yet, all the positions I applied for were child care positions in emergency shelters and homes for the neglected and abused.  And I wondered why it was that I would wish to live in a nicer and safer place when I want to work and minister to those who don’t. How ironic – my heart is all for loving the abandoned and abused and yet I’m not for living where they live. Lesson learned.

I guess in the end this made up world of ours gets into all of our heads. If only we could see through it all – if only we could take all the man made things out and see the eternal……..if only

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